Heavy sigh ... deep thought, contemplation.

Have you ever watched Bones on TNT? I am fascinated with that show - not because of the dead gory bodies (though that IS pretty kewl!), not because of the suspense or the drama, not even because of the relationships (though some of the interactions are quite humorous!); it's because I relate so to Dr. Brennan. Not that I'm scientific by any means nor intelligent in the least but the way she thinks, the things that she says, the delivery of what she says all resonate deep within me. What she doesn't understand I find I don't understand and her pragmatism grounds me.  How Bones sees love and relationships I get ... I don't get many of the other characters. As a matter of fact, I don't get love - at all. Rules make sense to me; facts plain and simple, laws, lessons, order, authority - all fit contextually into my schema. Love, grace, forgiveness, mercy - alien. I'm not a mushy gushy hopeless romantic, don't enjoy love stories and tend to quickly turn aside when love scenes are on television or in a book. I didn't go see Titanic or Pearl Harbor because I had heard that in both movies - both 2 1/2 hours - only 1/2 hour of each was the actual disaster, death and destruction and the rest of the entirety of both movies was mushy love and relationship building. Yuckola!

Now I give you all this background and say all of this as a build up to John's message this Sunday, February 14th, Valentine's Day ... a day created by card companies (specifically Hallmark) to share with your loved ones. John, though, will be not only speaking of love but also performing wedding vows, I mean the renewal of wedding vows. My first thought ... yuckola! My second thought ... not attending!! However, I realize that I need to stop running. I need to stop and allow something or someone love me.

I don't know if that is where John will be going with this weeks message - I don't know where John will be going with this whole love thing on Sunday - I only know that I deeply need to love God and need the love of God and in order to experience that love I have got to stop running ... at least long enough for God to catch me and envelop me in his arms and just be.

Is that even possible?